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Time is Running Out
Sometimes I feel like I will never get my life under control. Every time I get headed in that direction, something goes haywire.
I realized today that I'm not going to be able to make working for S work. Not as is. I just don't have time to keep up with everything and he's freaking out and I'm freaking out and there's a lot of freaking out, but there is only so many hours in the day.
And I work 4 jobs right now.
That's a lot.
My phone rang a total of 62 times today, incoming and outgoing, and that doesn't count the voice mails, the texts, or the emails that I dealt with all day either. I worked from the time I got up until 5 and then my brain just turned off.
Yesterday, I was reading an article in a magazine about high cholesterol and saw a checklist to the side. I read down the checklist and became convinced that I have high cholesterol. Only, it turned out it wasn't a check list for cholesterol. It was for Alzheimer's. According to the chart, I have Alzheimer's.
*headdesk*
I don't really think I do. I think I have too much going on and not enough brain power to hold it all in. Somethings going to break and if I don't want it to be me, then I'm going to have to find a way to give something up. Or at least, make it manageable.
I'm going to bed now.
I realized today that I'm not going to be able to make working for S work. Not as is. I just don't have time to keep up with everything and he's freaking out and I'm freaking out and there's a lot of freaking out, but there is only so many hours in the day.
And I work 4 jobs right now.
That's a lot.
My phone rang a total of 62 times today, incoming and outgoing, and that doesn't count the voice mails, the texts, or the emails that I dealt with all day either. I worked from the time I got up until 5 and then my brain just turned off.
Yesterday, I was reading an article in a magazine about high cholesterol and saw a checklist to the side. I read down the checklist and became convinced that I have high cholesterol. Only, it turned out it wasn't a check list for cholesterol. It was for Alzheimer's. According to the chart, I have Alzheimer's.
*headdesk*
I don't really think I do. I think I have too much going on and not enough brain power to hold it all in. Somethings going to break and if I don't want it to be me, then I'm going to have to find a way to give something up. Or at least, make it manageable.
I'm going to bed now.
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You get up and start walking and your feet take you where you wanted to go, but by the time you get there your brain can't remember why. Because too much fucking stuff ran through your mind in the twenty seconds it took to get there.
Juggling 4 jobs is... wow. 3 might be the maximum the human brain can handle! *pets you*
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