bewize | LJ Idol 20: The Language of Love

Entry tags:

LJ Idol 20: The Language of Love

Love means never having to say...

"Hello?"

"Hey, you. You're calling late. Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, sorry. Did I wake you up?"

"No, I was watching tv. What's up?"

"I'm just... it's just... I..."

"Yeah, I hear you. Did I tell you about this hot guy? He's totally your type and ..."

... I'm really upset. Please distract me right now. Please make me laugh, because if I start crying, I might never stop."

**********

Love means never having to say...

"Hi, sweetheart. I was just calling to say hi. What's going on?"

"Hi, mom. Things have been better."

"Yeah, I know. I'm postponing reroofing the house for a while. Your stepdad and I want to send you enough money to pay your rent for a few months. Tell me how much that will be."

"You don't have to do that."

"I know."

... I'm not sure how I'm going to make ends meet and I'm terrified that I'm going to be evicted from my apartment.

**********

Love means never having to say...

"So I was thinking... I've got some vacation time and I'd really like to see you."

"You never want to come over and hang out."

"Yeah, but normally you don't need me to. I can be there on Friday and I'll stay through Tuesday. I'll even buy you some groceries."

"You're a dork."

"You're a bigger dork. And older. And stupider, but you're my sister and it'll be fun."

... thank you for calling me a dork and proving that some things never change. Even if I kind of want them to.

**********

Love means never having to say...

"Listen, I'm not asking you, I'm telling you to come over and let us fix you dinner."

"I'm really not in the mood."

"Yeah, that's why I didn't ask. What are you doing there anyway? Eating peanut butter out of the jar again?"

"You're a suspicious busybody."

"And you're a bitch. Be in the car in ten minutes."

"Fuck off."

"Love you, too. See you in half an hour."

... I'm too depressed to make myself dinner. Or go to the grocery store. Or care about anything. I haven't even showered today. Motivate me, please?

**********

Love means never having to say...

"Don't tell anyone, but I have some money I can loan you if you want it. It's mine, all mine, and it's not earmarked for anything."

"I can't take money from you."

"Sure you can. You just... do it."

"I can't."

"Do it."

"No."

"DO IT, CRACK HEAD!"

"... thank you."

"Now, see? That wasn't so hard."

... I'm not sure how to swallow my pride and admit that I need to borrow money.

**********

Love means never having to say...

"Hey, let me buy you lunch."

"That's generous of you to offer."

"And margaritas."

"It's a work day!"

"... so?"

"Good point."

... all I want to do is get sloshed and then laugh about stupid things. I can't cope with much else at the moment.

**********

Love means never having to say...

"So, Husband and I have talked it over. We want you to move in for a while."

"That's absurd."

"Why?"

"Because..."

"... it'll help us pay bills, too, you know. Husband has been laid off work for six weeks and we could use the help."

"But..."

"You'd be doing us a favor."

"I don't know."

"We've already worked out how to split the house up. And your kitties are welcome. Husband is actually really excited about Oscar moving in."

"I don't know."

"You listen to me and you listen hard. This does not make you a failure. It doesn't make you anything at all, except a good friend that we trust in our house."

"... thanks."

"Thank you. I told you, you're doing me the favor."

... this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I feel like I'm admitting that I can't take care of myself. I feel like a failure.

**********

Love means never having to say...

... I can't do this.

... I have nowhere to turn.

... I'm all alone.

**********

Love means never having to say...

I have long made it a practice to hug people goodbye when I leave them, even if it's just for a short while. I try and make sure that I end phone calls with "I love you." If I drop dead tomorrow, the one thing I'll know beyond a shadow of a doubt, is that there will be people left behind who loved me, and whom I loved.

... thank you.

But, because I love you guys, too, let me say it anyway.

Thank you.

This entry was written in response to the

therealljidol Challenge 20: Love means never having to say... There will (probably) be voting for this week's entries. I will make sure to link to the poll once it is put up and I would appreciate it if you would vote for me if you enjoy my entry. As always, feedback is welcome and appreciated.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Good post.

Thank you. :)

very well done, I like how you put this together

Thank you! I'm glad the formatting worked for you. I tried several different approaches, but this was the first one that really worked.

Awwww. I know you're going through a hard time now. And it seems like you have some wonderful people to support you! Hugs. Nice entry and I wish you well. I'd like to friend you if you wouldn't mind?

I do have some wonderful people in my life. It's luck, because I sure don't deserve them!

And yes, please do friend me. I'll return the favor. :)

I absolutely loved this. It is all so true.

Thank you. It is true. I keep telling myself that in the ways that matter, I am wealthy beyond belief. :)

*hugs*

I'm so glad we became friends. :)

(no subject)

dabhug.livejournal.com - 2009-02-11 17:47 (UTC) - Expand

*hugs* This was lovely. I am glad that you are loved, and that you know it.

Thank you. :)

I'm glad you enjoyed it. I am lucky beyond all accounting. :)

this one almost made me cry. Good job! and I liked the creative angle. :-D

Thank you! I'm really glad you liked it. Thanks for making the creative wheels turn.

This was very well done. I really loved it. I appreciate it when a writer is vulnerable and shares themselves. I'm trying to reach that point myself, rather than constantly wanting to put myself in a good light. Great, great job. I've been there too, and thankfully, I've had people in my life to love me through it, like you so obviously do.

Thanks for your comment on this entry! And thanks for the comments on some earlier entries, too. I really appreciate that you took the time to go back and read. :)

I appreciate it when a writer is vulnerable and shares themselves. I'm trying to reach that point myself, rather than constantly wanting to put myself in a good light.

This has been a process over the competition. I was afraid I was hiding too much, so I made teh choice to open up a bit more. I'm glad I did, even if it is a bit scary with people watching! @-@

Good luck with your entries. :D

(no subject)

pricelessone.livejournal.com - 2009-02-12 00:40 (UTC) - Expand

*sniffle* OMG! *sob* Damn it woman, you did it again. *tears* I love you even though you make me cry and addict me to various form of crack.

*HUGS*

I love you too. :)

This is lovely - a lot of truth in a few words.

Thank you very much. I'm so pleased you liked it. :)

I love pieces that have "breaks" in them (headers, time shifts, etc) but still flow. This one does just that. :D

~*~

Thanks. I'm glad the breaks worked for you. I find that organize a lot of things that way for some reason.

Excellent writing hon. I really admire how some times you can put so much of yourself into a piece and yet not have it one of those me me me me me things. You write about your situation but in a way that reflects the human condition totally, and in a way that everyone can relate to. Well done!

And on a more personal note, I'm so glad you have these people in your life. You know how crazy it drives me that I can never be there for you but I take consolation that there are all those people who can. *hugs*

I'm glad you enjoyed the piece.

You write about your situation but in a way that reflects the human condition totally, and in a way that everyone can relate to.

I'm really glad it didn't come out whiny!

(no subject)

esmeelf.livejournal.com - 2009-02-12 09:16 (UTC) - Expand

I really like how you approached this. I, too, have a hard time asking for help, or just admitting that I need help, so this really resonated with me.

Asking for help is one of the hardest things to do in my opinion. I'm really glad this resonated for you. :)

Thanks.

This is an amazing piece with heart, well organized, and brilliant. Thank you very much for writing this. It's a gem. : )

Thank you so much! I'm so flattered by your comment. And pleased! :)

perfect. an excellent illustration.

love it.

Thank you so much. :)

What I really like about this piece is how you made every paragraph a different situation, which strikes a lot of memories in your readers.

Thanks. I'm glad it was evocative.

So touching :)

Thank you very much!

I really liked the way you wrote this - great job!

Thank you so much. I really appreciate your comment and compliment!

I really like this. I'm glad you have people who can help you though this.

Theno

I'm lucky. I couldn't do it without them. :)

Thanks!

This made me cry. Thank you.

*hugs*

Thank you so much.

Nice job. I like how you structured this.

Thank you very much. :)

This is really excellent. So much feeling in the words.

Thank you so much. I appreciate your comment and compliment and I'm glad you liked it!

Hugs, but great entry.

Thank you! I'm really glad you liked it!

This was really creatively done and well-written. I liked it very much, and I'm sorry that you're going through such a rough time. I hope that things get better for you soon.
Allie.

Thank you so much for the compliment and well wishes. I appreciate both.

This made m cry. In a good way.

Glad it was in a good way!

Thank you.

I really love every entry you've done and I have to say that I really, really admire the grace and composure with which you're handling your current real-life situation. I was there myself two years ago and it's hard. Really effing hard. The fact that you have the emotional wherewithal to put your thoughts into cohesive and articulate posts speaks volumes about your strength.

I won't tell you it will all be ok, because you don't want to hear it. But I will say that YOU will be ok, because you appear to have all of the tools and support you need to move on to the next phase, whatever that may be.

Thank you so much for this comment. I cannot explain to you how much it meant to read this at this moment.

*hugs*

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Page 1 of 2