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There are few words to express how glad I am that it is Friday and that this week is going to be over soon. It's definitely improved in the last day or so. S and I are talking again, happily even. The phones - well, that's still a cluster, but at least I have a plan that involves making someone else as twitchy as I am. Evil? Perhaps, but misery loves company, yes?

Nat is making tuna steak for dinner and invited me over. I'd have to be a fool to miss that, plus, you know, dinner. Mmmm. I'll probably still be at work until 6ish, but I actually stand the chance to get everything on my list done this week.

That may be the first time that's ever happened.

We'll see, because a lot of it depends on how long I'm in court this morning and I expect that to last a while. I did bring a few other files with me to work on them during the wait, but still... how boring.

Last night I met up with some friends and went out for karaoke. When I was leaving, I had to excuse myself past this guy who was standing and blocking the entire walkway. He wasn't that big, he was just that akimbo. Anyway, after I eased past him, I felt someone grab my arm and I turned to see him standing there and he says, "God damn! Are you leaving?"

I gave him a funny look and said, "That would be why I'm walking to do the door."

He said, "But I haven't bought you a drink yet!" And the whole conversation took a bizarre but amusing turn. He was really drunk, but very funny, and it took me a few minutes to extricate myself from his suddenly sticky fingers. We agreed that if we ever met up again, he could buy me a drink. LOL. Very, very random.

I slept better last night, too. I think blowing off steam helped a lot, although my eye is still twitching. Damn it. Any suggestions, other than sleep? I can't figure out what's bothering it. Is anyone else having allergies yet? My asthma isn't bothered, but that doesn't mean much... it could be pollen?

OK. I'm off to fight The Man for a while. I hope you are all having a wonderful Friday and heading into a fun and relaxing weekend of Awesome!

It could be the congestion that gave it away. Or the sinus pressure that is so bad it's making my teeth hurt. Or the hacking cough. Or, perhaps even the fact that I can't sleep through the entire night because I wake up with ick dripping down my face.

But, what really gave it away... my left eye is swelling shut.

I bed the damn doctor will wish he'd listened to me a few weeks ago when I told him I needed more antibiotics. I am now eat up with whatever this is...

And here I thought I might make it through the winter without the plague (xxfingersxx on the pneumonia thing, please. I need all the luck I can get!).

I guess I'm going to have to see the doctor tomorrow. Damn it.

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So, Jules broke her arm. Why am I always the last to know? (It's Facebook, isn't it? My punishment for not liking Facebook.)

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My insane work week is paying off. I've got 58 things on my To Do list and I think about 45 of them are crossed off. Some of the others are short. All may be manageable by tomorrow - and tha will be the first time my To Do list has EVER gotten done. So, I'm not holding my breath. I'm just in a permanent wink. ;)

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It's after midnight and I"m sitting here with tissues crammed up my nose to stop the leaking. Despite the fact that the doc told me to stop doing that. He can sit around and leak all over his face, then, and GIVE TO ME THE DRUGS I NEED.

Night all!

Today has crossed the border to surreality. I've finally talked to S again, since he's come back to the office. We've been bickering, but not really, since he got here. He's mad at everyone in the whole world and telling me about it, but then he gets worked up and starts yelling like I'm the one who peed in his Cheerios.

Which I told him and then he got worked up at me for various reasons so I walked away. Then we got over it and decided to go have lunch and finally the waitress says, "I remember you guys."

S asks her if it's because we're so much trouble.

"No, you're just heavy drinkers."

To which S says, "You have no idea."

Hee. ... but I digress.

But, this is my problem - she kept refilling my glass, so I kept drinking it. It's vaguely like Mt. Everest. Eventually you have to climb that bitch, just because it's there.

So now, I've pumped so much sugar into my bloodstream that it's gone sludgy. And I'm partially sick and partially hyper as hell. So when S starts bitching (again) about yet another person, I went to stand in the hallway next to E's desk. He called E and continued his tirade, only now I could hear him through the phone and down the hallway, which struck me as both ridiculous and hysterical. I backed up enough that he could see me and told him that he sucked at "laying down the law."

BP pauses as he walks by and says to us both, "You two have the weirdest relationship."

Now S and I are both flustered, only I've got sugar-giggles and literally cried from laughter - because I realize how our conversations must sound to people walking by. Very, very bizarre.

But, I've still got my To Go Sweet Tea. And it's still sugary bliss. So, I shall keep drinking.

I... really don't have anything at all to say about Computer Programming. I know nothing about it. At all.

Instead, I would like to make a tribute of things that computers have made possible for me.

1. The people: I've made some incredible friends. I know people from all continents now. I've met people who share my interests, from the mundane to the bizarre, and there is a real sense of community to be had.

2. The games: I confess it. I've discovered RPGs. And through the RPGs, I've had the chance to both meet incredible people and just have a great deal of fun. I've been playing in one game since 2002 with the same people. It has given me so many hours of fun that I suspect I've passed into months of it. (Also, the other players have become incredible friends.)

3. The fanfic: Fanfic ate my brain well before I started writing it myself. But then I started writing it myself and I've never looked back. And I've met friends who share my fandoms and encourage my writing. I've undeniably become a better writer thanks to it.

4. The knowledge: I joke all the time that Google knows everything, but you know what? Google knows everything. I honestly do not know how I used to cope without being able to look everything up online. Google knows my bank account balances and directions to anywhere and what time the movies start.

5. The work: Since becoming a freelance writer, I use the computer to do everything from research my topics to writing the actual articles to emailing them to editors. It allows me to work from home, on my sofa, in my PJs. It allows me the chance to do something I actually want to do and to even, perhaps, be good at it!

6. The social awareness: I've become a better person because of the awareness of issues that I have acquired online. I now look at movies, books, tv and politics in a very different way than I used to. I'm more critical and more discerning and generally just more aware than I used to be. This is a very good thing.

7. The recs: I love recs. I make a ton of them when it comes to fic. I make them when it comes to links to interesting articles. I definitely make them when it comes to music. And other people make them and that makes me so damn happy! I love finding new things - from comics to music to fanfic.

8. The squee!: There are days when seeing other people's happy reactions to things can forcibly drag me from a despairing funk into a good mood. I love watching people celebrate things ranging from political elections to the completion of projects to the latest episode of whatever TV show they want. Plus, there are picspams. And I love a picspam. Someone should make one of Timothy Olyphant soon!

9. The history: I've been blogging for 7 years. That's a lot of my life that is there for me to flip through whenever I want. It's interesting to me to see how I've changed and grown in the past 7 years. When I started my LJ, I was nearing the end of law school. It's been with me through 2 jobs, being laid off, starting my own firm. It's been there with me through a variety of personal relationships and a great deal of navel gazing. I like knowing that I can look back and see where I've been, because it gives me hope for where I'm going.

10. The unknown: One of my favorite things about computers is that I don't know where they'll be in ten years. A really good friend of mine, who IS a computer programmer, and I discussed this over dinner last week for about 3 hours (much to his wife's and our other friend's likely disgust). We disagreed, but with amusement, about what computers would do for us in the next 10 years. I propose that we will see the next Big Deal emerge from communities exactly like DreamWidth. It's a way for all of us to share our knowledge and our hopes and - in my opinion - we will see change come from that, both socially and scientifically.

"I think your problem is that you just let people get to you. You shouldn't care what they say or think. It doesn't affect you, let it go."

This was the advice a friend of mine gave me a week ago. Another friend gave it to me a month ago. Yet a different friend gave this advice to me several months ago. At least a few friends have told me this repeatedly over the years. And if you go back a decade or two, my mother and father both told me this repeatedly.

As you can tell, I really suck at taking advice.

( Things I Bet Most of You Don't Know About Me )

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