bewize | Entries tagged with work non-drama

There are few words to express how glad I am that it is Friday and that this week is going to be over soon. It's definitely improved in the last day or so. S and I are talking again, happily even. The phones - well, that's still a cluster, but at least I have a plan that involves making someone else as twitchy as I am. Evil? Perhaps, but misery loves company, yes?

Nat is making tuna steak for dinner and invited me over. I'd have to be a fool to miss that, plus, you know, dinner. Mmmm. I'll probably still be at work until 6ish, but I actually stand the chance to get everything on my list done this week.

That may be the first time that's ever happened.

We'll see, because a lot of it depends on how long I'm in court this morning and I expect that to last a while. I did bring a few other files with me to work on them during the wait, but still... how boring.

Last night I met up with some friends and went out for karaoke. When I was leaving, I had to excuse myself past this guy who was standing and blocking the entire walkway. He wasn't that big, he was just that akimbo. Anyway, after I eased past him, I felt someone grab my arm and I turned to see him standing there and he says, "God damn! Are you leaving?"

I gave him a funny look and said, "That would be why I'm walking to do the door."

He said, "But I haven't bought you a drink yet!" And the whole conversation took a bizarre but amusing turn. He was really drunk, but very funny, and it took me a few minutes to extricate myself from his suddenly sticky fingers. We agreed that if we ever met up again, he could buy me a drink. LOL. Very, very random.

I slept better last night, too. I think blowing off steam helped a lot, although my eye is still twitching. Damn it. Any suggestions, other than sleep? I can't figure out what's bothering it. Is anyone else having allergies yet? My asthma isn't bothered, but that doesn't mean much... it could be pollen?

OK. I'm off to fight The Man for a while. I hope you are all having a wonderful Friday and heading into a fun and relaxing weekend of Awesome!

I can't stand it anymore. I'm going to work. See ya'll on the flip side. XD

It could be the congestion that gave it away. Or the sinus pressure that is so bad it's making my teeth hurt. Or the hacking cough. Or, perhaps even the fact that I can't sleep through the entire night because I wake up with ick dripping down my face.

But, what really gave it away... my left eye is swelling shut.

I bed the damn doctor will wish he'd listened to me a few weeks ago when I told him I needed more antibiotics. I am now eat up with whatever this is...

And here I thought I might make it through the winter without the plague (xxfingersxx on the pneumonia thing, please. I need all the luck I can get!).

I guess I'm going to have to see the doctor tomorrow. Damn it.

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So, Jules broke her arm. Why am I always the last to know? (It's Facebook, isn't it? My punishment for not liking Facebook.)

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My insane work week is paying off. I've got 58 things on my To Do list and I think about 45 of them are crossed off. Some of the others are short. All may be manageable by tomorrow - and tha will be the first time my To Do list has EVER gotten done. So, I'm not holding my breath. I'm just in a permanent wink. ;)

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It's after midnight and I"m sitting here with tissues crammed up my nose to stop the leaking. Despite the fact that the doc told me to stop doing that. He can sit around and leak all over his face, then, and GIVE TO ME THE DRUGS I NEED.

Night all!

I feel better.

And I have new clients coming in this afternoon and lots to do before then, but I feel pretty good.

Physically speaking, I still feel like crap, but meh... can't have it all I guess.

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I've been doing a lot of thinking over food culture and food shame, re: the post I made a few days ago. I definitely want to submit something to the Food Carnival. I'm really looking forward to it.

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Here. Have a Linkin Park vid. :)

The drugs are helping tremendously. I can swallow! (No dirty jokes yet. I'm not prepared for them. Maybe tomorrow.) Seriously, I had no idea how much it would freak me out to not be able to do that until it happened.

My throat is back to semi-normal size and because of the still painfulness of it, even the steroids haven't driven me to stuff my face like whoa. In fact, I lost two pounds since Sunday. And that's on a diet of ice cream, mac and cheese and soup. Yummy. Envy me that!

I'm, of course, starving today. My stomach won't stop growling and I had forgotten how badly the steroids affect hunger pains so it goes from 'yeah, I could eat,' to 'yeah, I could eat you, if I had steak sauce." (Again with the dirty joke warning. Ahem. Some of you were thinking it!)

I'm at work for now. We'll see if I make it the whole day. I'm definitely a space cadet, though, and I was about 10 miles further south on the interstate than my exit when I 'woke up' and realized it. I blame the pain pills for that. Oops? Then, of course, the way I choose to come into the office was blocked in one way by road work, in the other way by a car accident, and I finally had to drive really far around to get here. But I got here!

I'm so far behind. I would weep, except that won't help me catch up. I'm going to go eat brunch now (pancakes should be soft enough, I think???) and then come back and work as much as I can for the remainder of the afternoon. With any luck, I may get semi-caught up.

Maybe. Don't hold your breath.

Today has been awesome. My sister got into town last night and we chilled at the house while I made pies and destroyed cakes. I'm sure that's deep on other levels, but superficially... it smelled good. :)

We got up early today and went and ran in a 5 K that benefitted a local food bank. I ran the race in 39 minutes, unofficially. I'm still waiting on my "official time," since I wore a tracker with the insane idea that I will be qualifying for the Peachtree Road Race.

On that note, there's a resolution run on Jan 1 and race on St. Pat's weekend, if anyone wants to run with me. :) I'm thinking of doing both.

Of course, I got an invite to go to Las Vegas over New Year's Eve and I'm considering it. I probably will pass, since I don't really have the money, but it could be a lot of fun. I shall ponder.

We had dinner at home tonight, once V got done with work. OMG. It was a lot of food. We still haven't had pie yet, either. M rejected all Tgiving food in favor of chicken nuggets. *shrugs* He'll learn. :)

We had turkey, mashed potatoes, baked sweet potatoes, green bean caserole, asperagus caserole, corn on the cob, rolls, devilled eggs, and probably something that I'm forgetting. We have left overs forever. Please come here and eat. LOL.

The plan is to go shopping tomorrow, early. Like 5 am early. I am not feeling it yet, but I'm sure I will be happier once we get moving. I got 95% of my Xmas shopping done last year on this day. This year, V, S and I have sort of adopted this woman and her baby. She was homeless, and between us all, we've got her in an apartment. She got herself a job and is working really hard. But, it's not easy and we want to make sure that she and the baby are okay, so I'm guessing we'll hit up quite a few things for her.

V is trying to convince me to buy one of the really cheap laptops at BestBuy or Target as a "back up." LOL.

I spoke to my family and wished them well, but I'm really glad that I didn't go home this year. It's just too much... whatever.

I need to work on my LJI entry. I have an idea. It took me a while, but I think/hope I can pull it off. :)

I also need to write articles this weekend, because next week at work is going to SUCK. A LOT. I'm dreading it already. XD

Anyway, I'm thankful to have a job. And be doing so well this far into it. I'm thankful for friends. I'm thankful for my family, who all love me. I'm thankful for my furry babies, that remind me that I'm awesome on a regular basis. I'm thankful that I've found the courage to step out of my comfort zone and try new things. I'm thankful that my health is so much better now than it was. I'm thankful that I can afford/can obtain the meds that I need to keep me that way.

I'm also thankful that there is a whole pumpkin pie waiting for me on the stove. Yummy.

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Things are a bit out of control at the moment. And hurtling towards me like boulders down a mountain side.

My job is to dodge.

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I am STARVING.

I am eating cold rice, in the hopes that S will be out of his meeting ASAP so we can have lunch, but I may pass out before that. Thus, the rice.

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I saw Harry Potter. ( I liked it. Mostly. Spoilers. )

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Does anyone want to come and do a lot of work for me? I'm overwhelmed and a bit stressed by it all. But, I have companies calling and wanting to settle. Which reminds me, I need to collect my phone. It should be charged by now.

Cheers, Internets.

I've got a giant pile of work on the desk that I've not managed to get to today. I don't know that I'm going to get there today, either. Nor do I really care.

I'll get there eventually.

Right now, things at work are going pretty well. I've got two pretty big cases that are both in active settlement negotiations. I also picked up another BIG case that I'm really enthusiastic about, because it should be a clear case of settling to avoid bigger dramaz.

I'm trying to find out if my notary stamp is back, because I need it for a closing tomorrow. I think I may have to cancel the closing, though, because I can't do it if I don't' have the stamp.

I totally stood someone up for lunch today and feel a bit bad about it. I did send her a text when I realized, but I had a client come in and the meeting took way longer than I anticipated.

In other news, we signed our new lease! Whoot! I'm so excited about it. :) A new office, bigger space (for me, at least!), my name on the door. It's awesome!

The new laptop is also awesome.

Life is pretty awesome.

Honestly, I feel completely high at the moment. It's pretty good. :D

... what would you think of your last day on earth?

Mine? Not terrible, but not awesome either. I had two mediations today, both of which I feel like are probably settled. I have to report on one of them tomorrow, and I need my client to return my calls. Hmpfh.

I'm buried under work. I don't want to do anymore. But, such is life. I need to dig, because if I can dig in, I'll actually be okay. Or dig out. Whatever.

I got paid today! Not everything I'm owed, but hell! It's the difference between panic and relief, so I shall take it.

I think I'm going to go and run, then settle in for a long night of title work. Whee. My life > anything, right?

Today has crossed the border to surreality. I've finally talked to S again, since he's come back to the office. We've been bickering, but not really, since he got here. He's mad at everyone in the whole world and telling me about it, but then he gets worked up and starts yelling like I'm the one who peed in his Cheerios.

Which I told him and then he got worked up at me for various reasons so I walked away. Then we got over it and decided to go have lunch and finally the waitress says, "I remember you guys."

S asks her if it's because we're so much trouble.

"No, you're just heavy drinkers."

To which S says, "You have no idea."

Hee. ... but I digress.

But, this is my problem - she kept refilling my glass, so I kept drinking it. It's vaguely like Mt. Everest. Eventually you have to climb that bitch, just because it's there.

So now, I've pumped so much sugar into my bloodstream that it's gone sludgy. And I'm partially sick and partially hyper as hell. So when S starts bitching (again) about yet another person, I went to stand in the hallway next to E's desk. He called E and continued his tirade, only now I could hear him through the phone and down the hallway, which struck me as both ridiculous and hysterical. I backed up enough that he could see me and told him that he sucked at "laying down the law."

BP pauses as he walks by and says to us both, "You two have the weirdest relationship."

Now S and I are both flustered, only I've got sugar-giggles and literally cried from laughter - because I realize how our conversations must sound to people walking by. Very, very bizarre.

But, I've still got my To Go Sweet Tea. And it's still sugary bliss. So, I shall keep drinking.

I guess we're going to find out. I picked up (yet) another part time job doing title reviews. I can do it from home and I can do it in "off" hours. (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!)

I'm a bit concerned because I know that realistically, there are only so many hours in the day, but I swore I would pay off my debt by the end of the year if it killed me.

I suppose it might actually do that.

For the next week or three, I will be buried alive under files in every conceivable "off" hour. I get paid by the file, so it won't interfere with my other jobs, and I figure that I'll just ~~quit sleeping~~ fit it in around S, me, closings, writing and working out. It's a "temp" situation, lasting only a few weeks, so ideally I'd like to review about 100 files. Luckily, I think that's about how many they're asking of me. At an hour a file... I may actually end up killing myself. But I'm going to try my best!

I guess this is NOTICE that I will not really be available for a while.

I have training tomorrow at 1 for about an hourish, I guess. And since I spent the entire day today doing closings, I've got more work than I can fathom staring at me on my desk. Still, I'm going to quit for the day since I was here until 9 last night.

I'm tired. And I need to go running.

Glad I ~~completely failed~~ took Monday off. Sort of. Kind of. If working 5 hours and then doing things like laundry and cleaning out your car and such count as time off. *shifty eyes*

Today is Day 2 of the "run 2.2 miles every day for a week plan." This plan is seemingly out of nowhere and comes about just because I want to make my life more difficult. But, I figure I'll see what's happened at the end of the week. (I don't imagine it will be bad.)

Tonight, it rained. I ran after the rain and the temperature was definitely colder. That plus the humidity made my asthma kick off. And yet I still had an easier run than yesterday. I really think it's partially just reminding myself that yes, indeed, I *can* run 2.2 miles and it isn't even that hard. But some days, I just don't want to do it.

That's why I'm making it a rule for the next week. If I can run that far every day, then I 'm probably ready to find a longer route and kick it up a notch. But I think I'm going to need to acquire a few winter running shirts.

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I'm afraid of my work phone. Which is my cell phone. Which is bad. But I can't stand it when I end up with 14 voice mails in a day where I'm answering my phone. It scares me. And half of them are people wanting to know why X isn't done.

I'll tell you.

BECAUSE MY DAMN PHONE WON'T STOP RINGING!!!

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I have a med mal case regarding a girl who had to have two liver transplants thanks to a doctor's incompetence. I calculated the bills from her second surgery today and had a stroke.

My life isn't so bad. And I doubt that I will ever hit my maximum lifetime coverage in insurance in the span of three months.

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Irrationally perhaps, but sometimes when my f-list page is full of "you should think X instead of Y about [insert political issue of choice]", I just want to tell people to quit telling me how to think!

*bangs head*

At the end of the day, very few people know anyone else on their flists well enough to judge their lives. S'all I'm saying.

ETA: I figured I'd better specify that this is aimed mostly at the folks telling me that because I support women's colleges, I somehow support a classist system that prevents the lower classes from obtaining a feminist education.

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I'm dying my hair. I think this is the wrong color.

That is bound to be interesting.

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S called my phone when I was out running. V answered. He said he had something he wanted me to do in the morning (why call me at night????), but he didn't answer when I called back. I dread to think what it will be...

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Remember when Mattie dislocated his elbow? The insurance company has denied coverage. *rolls eyes*

We'll see about that, won't we? But that's BS. It was a weekend. He was in pain. Where the hell else should we have taken him?!

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There is a client who owes me $5,000. This would go a long (long, long, long) way to making my world easier right now. I'm going to spend part of tomorrow trying to get my money from him. (No, seriously. A long, long, long, long way.)

Last night, I intended to work late. I had help and everything. But, it came at the end of a long day, complete with a comedy-routine worthy phone call with two women on speakerphone, whereby one woman was in "jail, but she was in the crazy hospital" until a minute ago, whose sister was trying to find her a lawyer, which devolved into a screeching fight wherein the only intelligible words were "SHUT THE FUCK UP, I'M TRYING TO GET YOU A LAWYER, YOU CRAZY BITCH!"

*headdesk*

Dear Lord.

And, after a few minutes more, it came out that lady in jail, but who had been in the "crazy hospital" had committed manslaughter.

Lovely.

On the tail end of that, I decided I needed to drink. So, we went to Brickstore, and ran into friends there! Yay! Then, on the way out, S called, so we went to Twains and played trivia. T'is the season for pumpkin ales and oktoberfests. I'm a happy bewize.

Of course, nothing got done, and then I went and did the 30 Day Shred. I'm shocked to say this, but I'm done with workout 1. It's too easy now. Time to kick it to work out 2. I'm not doing it everyday in a row, but that's about 7 days with the first workout.

Has anyone else seen the criticisms of Obama hugging Rham when Rahm left office?! I'm mind-boggled and I honestly think the only response I have for people making that noise is this:

"Give me a fucking break."

Men hugging is hardly a sign of weakness that will be exploited by "our enemies." Perhaps if we, as Americans, can do a little bit more to show our humanity, we'll do a little more to restore people's faith in the fact that we are, indeed, humane. Starting with our leaders and working down.

Here, the hug that led to the downfall of the USA:

Idiots! *throws hands in the air*

(T'is a little known fact that enemies wait for people to be hugging to attack. Trufax. - SEE how ridiculous this sounds?!)

*snickers* And now I can't stop giggling at the picture of Bush doing the stomach bump thing. *snorts*

I'm so tired, I'm nearly hysterical with it. You know what though? It's different than normal. I'm physically worn out, but my mind is relatively peaceful. I think it's the peace that comes with literally having done everything that I can do.

I have a mantra: Work harder, work faster, work smarter, work more.

I tell myself this all the time. But... there comes a point where you max out and I think I've hit that point. I've been trying to figure out why I'm so mentally exhausted lately and there you have it.

I think I'm done.

But I'm not panicky about it. I think things are going to be okay. I've worked hard, built momentum, and now I'm watching it slide and just praying that it's going to slide into place. And if it doesn't? Well, I'll deal with that then.

( Morning )

I've picked up a few new clients, which is always good. Maybe I can get enough money in to cover some of the expenses I've got coming up.

I'd really like a vacation, please. Something where I sleep a lot and maybe lay on a beach and do nothing more strenuous than read a book.

Why isn't this my life?

So, I've been super stressed about money all month and could not for the life of me figure out why it was so tight. It turns out, I forgot to deposit a rather significantly sized check, which I found in my wallet today.

The good news is money! Also, it's money that I've made it without all month, so it's not urgently desperately needed money. I'm going to put some of it in savings and some of it on a credit card. Whoot, whoot!

I also took care of a few things that are stressing me out, so those are off my to do list. I plan to go running this evening and I'll probably put in another long night at the office. That way, shit gets done.

I'm taking half a day off tomorrow. I'm so tired and so burned out. I can't decide if I'm better off going to the pool or the movies. Thoughts?

Going to get some stuff done now, because S will be in shortly and wants to go watch the game across the street and work from there, which means I can't use the comp at that point. *woes*

I got a lot done today and I'm very pleased with myself. I'm especially pleased with the fact that I got something ready to be filed that has been hanging over my head for months. MONTHS.

I'm prepared to file it tomorrow, when I will swing by the juvenile court on my way into the office. Boo yah.

I also got into a fight with a client, which ended badly, and I suggested he fire me if he didn't want to take legal advice. I bluntly told him that would allow me to withdraw from the case and that he could go and make a cluster of it on his own without dragging me through the mud with him. He called me later, apologized, and we are going to work it out, I think. *rolls eyes*

But, these things have been causing me anxiety and I feel better about it now.

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First thing this morning, I found this link about US Marines in Afghanistan adopting kittens. You guys. I died. It's the most adorable link ever. EVER.

No seriously, if you want to make negative comments, DON'T.

This makes me very happy.

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I'm already in my PJs. I have been since 7. I don't even care. I'm a tired tired Bewize.

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This weekend, I'm going to go to Macon and see the BraggJam. I'm pretty excited, because I've talked to a lot of these bands. I shall see if I can snag any of them to say hi in person.

Also, it will be wonderful to see Steph's new house! I'm excited!

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I had a conversation today that amused me. It began, "Hey, you remember that stoned artist guy that hit on you at last year's Dragon*Con?"

I did, indeed, remember him. Turns out he's got a new book out. It just amused me that any conversation ever gets to start that way. Another artist I met at DC last year emailed me and invited me to a signing. I love that part of my life. *hearts*

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Tonight is Top Chef and Psych and both make me very, very happy. I'm also going to try and finish Comedy of Errors. It's been interesting thus far and hits my twin brother fascination hard. Two sets of twins!

I picked up Skin Trade from the library. I heard it was decent and that it has Edward in it. I'm hopeful that both are true. EDWARD! ♥

I also borrowed a Harlan Cobin book from Nat, so I will read that next.

Of course, all of this is after I finish the Lisa Shearin book that I'm almost done with. I frigging LOVE her series. Best thing I've come across in a long, long time. The heroine is awesome and genuine and neither uber!powerful or uber!bitchy. She makes mistakes. She trusts other people. She is wonderful and I love her.

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The Braves game tonight is going pretty well. J Hey stole home! Whoot!