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bewizeI'm so tired, I'm nearly hysterical with it. You know what though? It's different than normal. I'm physically worn out, but my mind is relatively peaceful. I think it's the peace that comes with literally having done everything that I can do.
I have a mantra: Work harder, work faster, work smarter, work more.
I tell myself this all the time. But... there comes a point where you max out and I think I've hit that point. I've been trying to figure out why I'm so mentally exhausted lately and there you have it.
I think I'm done.
But I'm not panicky about it. I think things are going to be okay. I've worked hard, built momentum, and now I'm watching it slide and just praying that it's going to slide into place. And if it doesn't? Well, I'll deal with that then.
I had a rough start. I didn't get to bed until after 1 and I got up at 7. I did the 30 Day Shred, then had two conference calls while driving to work. After that, I've been staring blankly at the large pile of TO DO things, but I'm feeling the momentum to get some of it done. So that's good.
I've picked up a few new clients, which is always good. Maybe I can get enough money in to cover some of the expenses I've got coming up.
I'd really like a vacation, please. Something where I sleep a lot and maybe lay on a beach and do nothing more strenuous than read a book.
Why isn't this my life?
I have a mantra: Work harder, work faster, work smarter, work more.
I tell myself this all the time. But... there comes a point where you max out and I think I've hit that point. I've been trying to figure out why I'm so mentally exhausted lately and there you have it.
I think I'm done.
But I'm not panicky about it. I think things are going to be okay. I've worked hard, built momentum, and now I'm watching it slide and just praying that it's going to slide into place. And if it doesn't? Well, I'll deal with that then.
I had a rough start. I didn't get to bed until after 1 and I got up at 7. I did the 30 Day Shred, then had two conference calls while driving to work. After that, I've been staring blankly at the large pile of TO DO things, but I'm feeling the momentum to get some of it done. So that's good.
I've picked up a few new clients, which is always good. Maybe I can get enough money in to cover some of the expenses I've got coming up.
I'd really like a vacation, please. Something where I sleep a lot and maybe lay on a beach and do nothing more strenuous than read a book.
Why isn't this my life?