30 Day Meme: Day Two - My First Love

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This day is one of several that freaks me out to talk about. I'm pretty sure I'm going to come out sounding either like a total lunatic or pathetic and I don't particularly feel fond of either. But, in the interest of honesty, here goes.

The first guy that I ever really remember having feelings for was a lot older than I was. He was the boy across the street and his name was Kenneth. I was only a kid, though, so this never went any further than me kissing a flower that I left in his yard. *lol*

My first "boyfriend" came in the 4th grade (or something like that?) and his name was Alex. We held hands on the playground and I remember having this funny floating feeling, but like all grammar school romances, it was doomed to failure.

The first guy that I ever thought I loved had been a friend for a long time. He was one of my best friends at the time, but we were in high school and lived for drama and it went very wrong. Luckily, through perseverance, we remained friends, and I'm pretty sure in retrospect that I did love him, but mostly as a friend. I still do love him as a friend. :)

And this is the crux of it - I've never really been in love with anyone. I've been enamored with, intrigued by, in lust with, involved with, "special friends" with, good friends with, and do love several men in the past/present/ and foreseeable future. But I've never been head over heels, can't feel the ground beneath my feet, the world could end and I'd be happy in love with anyone.

Which is why I'm guessing this makes me a bit pathetic.


The Meme:
Day 01 - Introduction
Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail

Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 – Your day, in great detail
Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail
Day 08 – A moment, in great detail
Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail
Day 10 – What you wore today, in great detail
Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail
Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail
Day 13 – This week, in great detail
Day 14 – What you wore today, in great detail
Day 15 – Your dreams, in great detail
Day 16 – Your first kiss, in great detail
Day 17 – Your favorite memory, in great detail
Day 18 – Your favorite birthday, in great detail
Day 19 – Something you regret, in great detail
Day 20 – This month, in great detail
Day 21 – Another moment, in great detail
Day 22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail
Day 25 – A first, in great detail
Day 26 – Your fears, in great detail
Day 27 – Your favorite place, in great detail
Day 28 – Something that you miss, in great detail
Day 29 – Your aspirations, in great detail
Day 30 – One last moment, in great detail

Comments

[sid]

I got engaged to my 4th grade boyfriend. We'd stroll around the playground hand-in-hand and talk about our future.

Then his family moved and I never saw him again. I don't even remember what his name was. Larry? :-/

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