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Hmmm. I think I'm sick.

It could be the congestion that gave it away. Or the sinus pressure that is so bad it's making my teeth hurt. Or the hacking cough. Or, perhaps even the fact that I can't sleep through the entire night because I wake up with ick dripping down my face.

But, what really gave it away... my left eye is swelling shut.

I bed the damn doctor will wish he'd listened to me a few weeks ago when I told him I needed more antibiotics. I am now eat up with whatever this is...

And here I thought I might make it through the winter without the plague (xxfingersxx on the pneumonia thing, please. I need all the luck I can get!).

I guess I'm going to have to see the doctor tomorrow. Damn it.

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So, Jules broke her arm. Why am I always the last to know? (It's Facebook, isn't it? My punishment for not liking Facebook.)

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My insane work week is paying off. I've got 58 things on my To Do list and I think about 45 of them are crossed off. Some of the others are short. All may be manageable by tomorrow - and tha will be the first time my To Do list has EVER gotten done. So, I'm not holding my breath. I'm just in a permanent wink. ;)

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It's after midnight and I"m sitting here with tissues crammed up my nose to stop the leaking. Despite the fact that the doc told me to stop doing that. He can sit around and leak all over his face, then, and GIVE TO ME THE DRUGS I NEED.

Night all!

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LJ Idol (Week Break) - This Ain't Dear Abby

I wrote this before I realized this week's post wasn't mandatory. I like it, so I'm posting it here, and will likely post to the community because - yes, I am a masochist. LOL.

ATTENTION READERS!!!

THIS IS A POST FROM THE FUTURE. SPECIFICALLY, THIS IS A POST FROM NEW YEAR’S EVE ONE YEAR FROM NOW. TOMORROW BEGINS 2012.

As you can clearly tell by this very post, we have invented (but not yet perfected) time travel. I have come back to warn you about a few… shall we say… relevant facts to your future.

1. 2011 isn’t all that different from 2010. Except for the tiny little blackhole incident that happens on March 15. Beware the Ides, folks. Shakespeare knew his stuff.
2. To fix the tiny little blackhole incident that happens on March 15, some genius decided to invent antimatter. Yeah, so NOT the best plan anyone has ever had. It’s going to make for a really rough April.
3. But you’ll survive! ~~Most likely…~~ And May really isn’t so bad. Really. Of course, Bettle-flu isn’t so terrible compared to the zombies of June, so maybe that’s relative.
4. June goes much better for people who have flame-throwers. I’m just saying…
5. Look at the good news! If you make it to August, you’re in good shape and you’ve mastered the art of self-defense, so the teeny little alien invasion is more like a hiccup.
6. Oh, and if you get to November, I hope you stockpiled bottled water.
7. December in the bunker was nice. Kind of festive, really. My fervent wish that more people had packed deodorant, notwithstanding.

2012 looms a bit ominous. I blame the Aztecs. Buncha bitches, really. But it will be what it will be.

Don’t bother making New Year’s Resolutions for 2011, though. I mean financial responsibility goes out the window when all the Swiss banks get sucked into the black hole. And April… well, let’s just say that the guy who told everyone to wear sunscreen wasn’t lying.

Beetle-flu has been named the most successful dietary aid in the history of mankind, and if you’ve got a few extra pounds by that time, well… you’re one of the lucky ones. Exercise becomes an ironic term for “learning how to run for your life successfully” and, trust me, your hobbies will increase exponentially to include reading survival guides, weapons manuals, home-farming aids and a variety of other “How To” books.

Drinking more water? Well, that one you may actually want to consider. But don’t worry about making more friends! You’ll meet so many new people in December that you’ll long for the days when you could spend an evening by yourself. But, festive. Really. (Bring deodorant.)

Of course, the imperfected method of time-travel that we have likely means that the very act of posting this will inexorably change the future – and before you ask yourself how that could be a bad thing – let me just say, we could have lost in August. And we’re not talking about cute E.T. types of aliens. You’ll wish probes were the worst things on the agenda.

Awww, hell. Sunscreen and bottled water. Oh, and flamethrowers. Put those on your New Year’s Resolutions and you’ll be doing pretty damn good. If you put deodorant on your list, look me up in Bunker 7862 in underground ATL in December. I make a mean rat stew. You’ll love it. Haute cuisine ain’t got nothing on me!

If I could give you one piece of advice, as the end of 2010 approaches and the New Year is about to begin it’s this – tell your loved ones you love them. A lot. As often as you can. Make it uncomfortable, even.

And buy yourself a goddamned flame thrower!

Best of luck,

Bewize

This entry was written for Topic (Week Break): New Year at

therealljidol. I assume voting will take place later this week per the norm. Everyone should check out all the good entries (if anyone else is as nuts as I am)!

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Bah Humbug

No, that's not true. I'm being very productive and am quite cheerful, I just have to eat lunch alone and I don't want to. *sulks like a child*

I don't want to enough that I'm considering just skipping it, but that wouldn't be good.

I may go eat sushi. That will cheer me up. ♥

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March! As my godson likes to say!

The drugs are helping tremendously. I can swallow! (No dirty jokes yet. I'm not prepared for them. Maybe tomorrow.) Seriously, I had no idea how much it would freak me out to not be able to do that until it happened.

My throat is back to semi-normal size and because of the still painfulness of it, even the steroids haven't driven me to stuff my face like whoa. In fact, I lost two pounds since Sunday. And that's on a diet of ice cream, mac and cheese and soup. Yummy. Envy me that!

I'm, of course, starving today. My stomach won't stop growling and I had forgotten how badly the steroids affect hunger pains so it goes from 'yeah, I could eat,' to 'yeah, I could eat you, if I had steak sauce." (Again with the dirty joke warning. Ahem. Some of you were thinking it!)

I'm at work for now. We'll see if I make it the whole day. I'm definitely a space cadet, though, and I was about 10 miles further south on the interstate than my exit when I 'woke up' and realized it. I blame the pain pills for that. Oops? Then, of course, the way I choose to come into the office was blocked in one way by road work, in the other way by a car accident, and I finally had to drive really far around to get here. But I got here!

I'm so far behind. I would weep, except that won't help me catch up. I'm going to go eat brunch now (pancakes should be soft enough, I think???) and then come back and work as much as I can for the remainder of the afternoon. With any luck, I may get semi-caught up.

Maybe. Don't hold your breath.

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Randomness Abounds

I've not updated with anything but Woe!Angst lately and while life is insanely stressful, there are (as always) several very fun things still happening.

* I met a guy who is a lot younger than I am (though legal!). He's adorable, though, and persistent as hell. I told him to go away before I did something I'd regret (so, so cute!). He said that sounded promising and has been e-stalking me since, but in a cute way. I told him he was too little and he said, "Not where it counts." LOL. Seriously... this could be problematic. But in a fun way!

* I had the chance to interview Mike Kinnebrew again. He's a local-ish musician and I adore him. He is so nice! And his music is fun, singer/songwriter stuff. Seriously, LOVE. We've become Facebook friends so I can better stalk him. It was his idea. ♥ (He's got a lot of music on Youtube and his new album just came out. Go and listen!)

* The office move is underway. It's 95% stress, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I don't think it's a train. Please, God, don't let it be a train.

* M continues to be a shining light. He's SO MUCH FUN at this age. He's obsessed with Elmo and with books and he constantly brings me Scott Pilgrim and the Marvel Mix and Match that Margot bought him last year. He calls me, "RACH!" and sometimes "MOMMYRACH!" and I don't think it's possible to love anyone more. /sap

* My family is thinking about coming here for Christmas. I don't know what to think of that. So, in true bewize-fashion, I won't think about it at all. It won't happen anyway, but the possibility is freaking me out.

I'm hungry now and going to eat lunch shortly. Bye folks!

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Brain Spins

Things are a bit out of control at the moment. And hurtling towards me like boulders down a mountain side.

My job is to dodge.

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I am STARVING.

I am eating cold rice, in the hopes that S will be out of his meeting ASAP so we can have lunch, but I may pass out before that. Thus, the rice.

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I saw Harry Potter. ( I liked it. Mostly. Spoilers. )

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Does anyone want to come and do a lot of work for me? I'm overwhelmed and a bit stressed by it all. But, I have companies calling and wanting to settle. Which reminds me, I need to collect my phone. It should be charged by now.

Cheers, Internets.

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Time Change is Kicking My Ass

I'm exhausted. WTF?

Today was all right. I had a meeting, got paid, did some work, had another meeting, got a contract on a new med mal case, scheduled two new client meetings for tomorrow and still managed to get home early(ish).

Cramps suck, though. Sorry if that's TMI.

We had Texas Roadhouse for dinner, but I didn't feel great, M is sick, V is coughing and P wanted to go to work, so we didn't exactly linger, and I've been home since doing yet more work. I did have a rib though, and I've got left over ribs to eat at some point this week.

My mom told me to take some money and buy myself a new outfit. I said I wanted to pay off debt more, but she told me to shut up and listen to my mother. *lol* With an order like that, I think maybe I'll take her advice. I could use some new clothes, actually. I don't think I've bought myself new clothes (other than running clothes) since early summer, and then it was 2 dresses from Target.

Anyone want to go shopping?

I've got plans for tomorrow evening that I am looking forward to, although I can already feel the week slipping away from me. I need to remember to pack clothes to change into after work. Maybe I can sneak in a run first, too? We'll see, but running in Decatur would be awesome. All the Christmas decorations are up.

I helped Santa out this year and bought M a red wagon (Radio Flyer, of course!), which arrived today. It's very cool and all reminiscent of my own childhood. V was all emotional that I did it, but of course I did it. I would get that kid the moon if he asked me to.

He finally learned to say "Rach" and it's adorable. Half the time, he still calls me "mamamama" though. V is mommy or mombie (rhymes with zombie). I think he's finally realizing that all women aren't a derivation of "mom".

I ate a tiny snickers bar. It was tasty.

Did I mention that cramps suck?

Thanks to everyone who voted for me in LJ Idol. I'm pleased to have made it to a second week. The new topic is Deconstruction. Any suggestions?

And on that note, I'm going to bed. Where the heating pad currently lives.

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LJ Idol 0: The Care and Handling of Bewize

Congratulations! You've acquired access to your very own Bewize. Allow me to share a few things that I think will make the experience more fun and less stressful for all parties. Anyone who has had access to a Bewize in the past, feel free to make suggestions in the comments.

1. The first thing to know about a Bewize is that they tend to be very private. You'll find mostly locked journal entries, because Bewizes tend to have jobs that require some amounts of privacy (like, for example, lawyering). That said, Bewizes are generally happy to add friends, as long as friends don't come across as creepy, stalkery types who like to cause trouble. Bewize needs no help causing trouble.

2. Bewizes work a great deal. In fact, Bewizes are work-a-holics. Currently, reports suggest that Bewizes have upwards of 2 jobs at any given time (lawyering, contract lawyering, freelance writing, a variety of random jobs will all be likely). Bewizes are also entrepreneurs and as anyone with their own business knows, it's never a 9-5 deal. Bewizes take on work at the expense of nearly everything else.

3. Because of Bewizes' work habits, Bewizes occasionally suffer health problems. Most recently, Bewizes are reported as being susceptible to the "chest plague" and/or asthma. Luckily, most health problems can be controlled with medication.

4. Bewizes have obsessive personalities and tend to ramble about whatever it is that has caught their attention. Current trends suggest that diet and exercise are high on the list, as well as the usual like friends, family and work.

5. Bewizes are great at existing in drama. This is a good thing, because Bewizes have nearly magical powers at attracting it, even though most of it isn't their fault. No really, it usually is not their fault. Bewizes have been known to randomly meet and befriend famous people and randomly get sued. Both are equally likely to happen.

6. Bewizes are social creatures and enjoy going out with friends. Bewizes are unlikely to be in serious relationships, though on occasion they may dabble. Bewizes may live with a variety of roommates, including toddler godsons. Bewizes may be hard to track down for this reason.

7. Bewizes have a love/hate relationship with technology. A Bewize will never be far from her phone, but she will likely not answer it. Bewizes can be obsessive about the internet.

8. Bewizes can be depended on to take 90% of things in stride. Upset Bewizes are less likely than pissed off Bewizes. Pissed off Bewizes should be approached with extreme caution. Pissed off Bewizes should never be taunted to "be honest about what she really thinks." In fact, pissed off Bewizes should never be taunted. Really, neither should a calm Bewize.

9. Bewizes are opinionated. No really, a Bewize will likely have an opinion about everything. If she chooses not to share it, it's because she likely thinks it will cause drama (see above about Bewize needing no help to find drama). If pushed, a Bewize will nearly always tell you what it thinks.

10. Bewizes are known to switch emotions fairly quickly, and even an angry Bewize can be calmed down. Bewizes are tremendously loyal, but if you push a Bewize too far, you're probably never going to get one back.

In short, Bewizes are an adventure. :)

Good luck with yours!

This entry was written for Topic 0: Introductions at

therealljidol. Given that I've written several of these in the past, I figured I'd go for a tongue in cheek introduction, but I think that the "rules" here are a fairly accurate description of myself. If you disagree, see rule 8, but feel free to let me know! Reality checks are good for people.

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Tick Tock, On the Clock

Today is Day 2 of the "run 2.2 miles every day for a week plan." This plan is seemingly out of nowhere and comes about just because I want to make my life more difficult. But, I figure I'll see what's happened at the end of the week. (I don't imagine it will be bad.)

Tonight, it rained. I ran after the rain and the temperature was definitely colder. That plus the humidity made my asthma kick off. And yet I still had an easier run than yesterday. I really think it's partially just reminding myself that yes, indeed, I *can* run 2.2 miles and it isn't even that hard. But some days, I just don't want to do it.

That's why I'm making it a rule for the next week. If I can run that far every day, then I 'm probably ready to find a longer route and kick it up a notch. But I think I'm going to need to acquire a few winter running shirts.

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I'm afraid of my work phone. Which is my cell phone. Which is bad. But I can't stand it when I end up with 14 voice mails in a day where I'm answering my phone. It scares me. And half of them are people wanting to know why X isn't done.

I'll tell you.

BECAUSE MY DAMN PHONE WON'T STOP RINGING!!!

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I have a med mal case regarding a girl who had to have two liver transplants thanks to a doctor's incompetence. I calculated the bills from her second surgery today and had a stroke.

My life isn't so bad. And I doubt that I will ever hit my maximum lifetime coverage in insurance in the span of three months.

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Irrationally perhaps, but sometimes when my f-list page is full of "you should think X instead of Y about [insert political issue of choice]", I just want to tell people to quit telling me how to think!

*bangs head*

At the end of the day, very few people know anyone else on their flists well enough to judge their lives. S'all I'm saying.

ETA: I figured I'd better specify that this is aimed mostly at the folks telling me that because I support women's colleges, I somehow support a classist system that prevents the lower classes from obtaining a feminist education.

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I'm dying my hair. I think this is the wrong color.

That is bound to be interesting.

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S called my phone when I was out running. V answered. He said he had something he wanted me to do in the morning (why call me at night????), but he didn't answer when I called back. I dread to think what it will be...

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Remember when Mattie dislocated his elbow? The insurance company has denied coverage. *rolls eyes*

We'll see about that, won't we? But that's BS. It was a weekend. He was in pain. Where the hell else should we have taken him?!

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There is a client who owes me $5,000. This would go a long (long, long, long) way to making my world easier right now. I'm going to spend part of tomorrow trying to get my money from him. (No, seriously. A long, long, long, long way.)

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30 Day Meme: Day 9 - I believe.

Jeez. The more I answer this meme, the less I'm sure I should have ever started. I had no idea that I avoided talking about so many topics until I realized that I avoid even thinking about some of them.

My religious life is complicated. I grew up in a fundamentalist Bible Church. Think Southern Baptists on 'roids and you get an idea of what it was like. There were no exorcisms or laying on of the hands, though, because nearly everyone in the Church I grew up in was highly educated and felt that some things pushed religion just too far. *rolls eyes*

I will credit my upbringing with one thing: TPTB always stressed the importance of reading the book. So, I've read various versions of the Bible multiple times. I own at least four. I also own the major religious books for every major world religion and about a score of other religious texts. I find the idea of religion fascinating, but at some point along the way, I disconnected from it.

I'm pretty sure there is a God. Depending on the day, I sometimes think He has a bizarre sense of humor. While I like the main tenants of Christianity, and take no offense at anything Jesus ever reportedly said, I don't generally feel the same about most of his self-proclaimed followers.

I hate hypocrites and since Jesus seemed less than keen on them, I think that's the basis for what I believe.

If you say you believe in something, act that way. Don't preach, lead. Don't force something down my throat, because I *will* spit it back at you (and you won't like it).

The Meme:
Day 01 - Introduction
Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail
Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 – Your day, in great detail
Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail
Day 08 – A moment, in great detail
Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail
( If you'd like to play along )

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Oops.

*headdesk*

So remember when I talked abut paying off the Damn Discover Card a few days ago? Well, I made a balance transfer and then sent my entire "bonus" straight to Discover Card, which was great right up until I just realized that I forgot to cancel the payment coming out of my bank account.

Today.

So, I've now sent them even MORE money (which I don't really have at the moment).

Good news? This card should now be paid off for sure in the next month/two months.

Bad news? I have NO MONEY until someone pays me. $#!@.

I should, however, have enough to pay car insurance next week. After that? Touch and go.

I really need someone to pay me. LOL.

Worst case scenario, I'll pay myself for the work I do with S on a weekly basis this month.

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In other news, I'm feeling a tiny bit vulnerable today. Several things happened yesterday to make me feel a bit... unimportant. Which, you know, I am in the grand scheme of things, but it's never nice to feel like others see you that way.

I'll recover; my ego is in no way permanently damaged. But, still... I'm stinging a bit.

Which, if the past is any evidence to the future, will undoubtedly result in withdrawing for a while. So if I get scarce, don't worry. :)

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My throat hurts today. This is very upsetting considering the tremendous amount of crap I need to do/get done today. I shall have to suck it up. Maybe another cup of coffee will help?

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Cuz' whose to worry if our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don't you notice life goes on

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Is anyone interested in going to the Greek Festival on Sunday with me and Mattie? It'll be fun! They have Greek food! *tempts*

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So, this afternoon, we have a police officer coming in to investigate an alleged death threat made by an attorney in the office. My life - never dull.

BE JEALOUS!

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Time Slips Its Tired Hand into Our Tired Hands

I'm so tired, I'm nearly hysterical with it. You know what though? It's different than normal. I'm physically worn out, but my mind is relatively peaceful. I think it's the peace that comes with literally having done everything that I can do.

I have a mantra: Work harder, work faster, work smarter, work more.

I tell myself this all the time. But... there comes a point where you max out and I think I've hit that point. I've been trying to figure out why I'm so mentally exhausted lately and there you have it.

I think I'm done.

But I'm not panicky about it. I think things are going to be okay. I've worked hard, built momentum, and now I'm watching it slide and just praying that it's going to slide into place. And if it doesn't? Well, I'll deal with that then.

( Morning )

I've picked up a few new clients, which is always good. Maybe I can get enough money in to cover some of the expenses I've got coming up.

I'd really like a vacation, please. Something where I sleep a lot and maybe lay on a beach and do nothing more strenuous than read a book.

Why isn't this my life?

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Things for Sharing

So I can close the tabs on my computer before I sleep tonight. *nods*

Heartless: The Story of the Tin Man from Brandon McCormick on Vimeo.

Ummm. Amazing. I really have no words for this, except that it proves that the future of film may actually be on the internet.

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Ikea. Wow, that's all I can say. Wow. And I mean that in the best of ways! Ikea lets 100 cats loose into the store just to see what happens. And it's awesome!

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For anyone who has ever needed a pocket Scott Summers. IDEK, but this is adorable. ♥

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Green Lantern has Glo Balls? He should probably see a doctor for that. *snicker*

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Monday Blahs

I'm fighting off a cranky mood today. I think it's a combination of PMS, sore-hip (OMG! It wants me to die!!) and a tremendous amount of work stress. STRESS.

I'm taking a minute here to take a few deep breaths and then dive back in.

How did I not realize I was going to be buried alive today? Urg.

Okay. Focusing on the TO DO list and seeing if - by some miracle - I can't get it all done today.

Not holding my breath, but crazier things have happened!

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30 Day Meme: Day 6 - My Day

I'm cheating. This technically fell on either one of the Dragon*Con days or on yesterday, the day of my big mediation. I'm... not up to posting about yesterday yet. And Dragon*Con will result in a post with equal mix of SQUEEEEEEEEEEE/RAAAAAAAGEEEEEEEEE, so I'm going to just pick up today. I'm not going to play catch up, you'll just have to keep reading from this day forward.

I stayed up way too late last night reading Mockingjay, which I finished at some nebulous time around 3 or 4. I didn't even look at the clock so I couldn't keep reminding myself how tired I was today because I got so little sleep.

Mattie came in and woke me up at about 8, although I'd heard him a few times before he actually came in. I stumbled out of bed and did the bathroom thing, although I didn't change, because I didn't want to go to work right away.

After I was alone, I drank two cups of coffee and made a few phone calls. Then I checked emails and sent off a few that needed answers. I tried to set up my second story interview and I need to finish setting up some magazine interviews.

At about 10:30, I decided I was starving. So I made lunch, although I didn't sit to eat until I put hair dye on my hair. I've got a haircut appointment tonight and I don't want to get it cut with all the grays showing.

Now, I'm watching "Say Yes to the Dress" (Umm, what is this show!?) and updating journals and stuff.

I'm going to go into the office later today with plans to finish 3 demand letters and 1 divorce petition. I'm also engaged in an email battle with Fulton County today, so that should be fun. Tonight, after the haircut, I'm going to have dinner with Nat.

I need to do two loads of laundry and my sister is coming into town this weekend, so I should probably also do a bit of cleaning.

S is working from home today with a sick puppy, so I really see no reason to race into the office. Good thing since I now have to shower the hair dye out! LOL. Plus, really, I need to see if this woman spends $12,000 on a wedding dress. Because, seriously, even if I had an unlimited amount of money, I wouldn't drop that kind of cash on a dress I was going to wear once. I'm not that ~~ridiculous~~ romantic.

The Meme:
Day 01 - Introduction
Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail
Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail
Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 – Your day, in great detail
( If you'd like to play along )

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30 Day Meme: Day Four - Foods

LOL. This is easy, since I've not eaten much today. Thus far today, I decided to skip coffee and such this morning as punishment for being a moron (actually, I lost my phone, and spent so much time looking for it that I didn't remember to eat anything). Then, after I got to work, I realized I was *starving* so I drove to Chik-Fil-A and conned my way into a Chicken Biscuit at 11!

Wheee!

I also got a large sweet tea.

I know that these things have the combined calories necessary to keep me going for a week, but damn, they were tasty. :D

(Also, since I'm down another 2 lbs, I decided I could splurge!)

The Meme:
Day 01 - Introduction
Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail
Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail
( If you'd like to play along )

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For one moment, I was my own shining star

I ran 4 miles this week. Why yes, I *am* a bad ass. I'm going to run that far again tonight. Because? I *am* a bad ass. :D

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So, Viggo.

Ummm, his new movie has him cast as Sigmund Freud.

It probably says something about my psyche how I reacted to that. Just saying...

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I'm hungry, but lately everything I eat feels like it gets stuck in the base of my throat, where it lies in wait to choke me to death. This is most displeasing.

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I interviewed Sue Monk Kidd and her daughter Ann Kidd Taylor about their new book today. Sue Kidd wrote The Secret Life of Bees. We got into a fascinating discussion of what myths mean to modern audiences, how the Persephone and Demeter myth can be taken in so many ways, what the purpose of travel for spiritual enlightenment is, why women in particular seem to be gravitating towards this idea now, rather than generations ago, and the complexities in a mother/daughter relationship, as well as what it means to figure out what you want from your life, and what it means about going to get it.

It was really interesting. I'm going to write an article about it, but I may end up writing a blog about some of the things it made me think about my own life.

This is one of those days where I really, really love my side job. I love people and fascinating people are, well, fascinating. Not because they're better, but because they somehow do something that I want to do, or seem to have figured out something that I'm struggling with.

This also leads me to some thoughts about cultural appropriation, but I'm not sure that most people I know would agree with me. In the end, I'm not sure taking something you've learned and making it your own in some way is a bad thing. Dismissing the original is a bad thing, yes, but no man is an island and if we don't learn from each other, we'll kill each other eventually.

Okay, stopping this point before I blog too much.

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Woke Up Early

Given my luck lately, I've decided it's my body's way of warning me that death may be imminent and I should get up and enjoy the hell out of today. :)

My list of To Dos is long and boring. But I shall persevere. I have this mental image of leaving the office today with NOTHING OUTSTANDING.

I will give you a moment to bask in the glory of that goal.

Now, what are you all doing reading this post?! GET TO WORK! But mostly, have a great day today.

I am. :)

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Time is Running Out

Sometimes I feel like I will never get my life under control. Every time I get headed in that direction, something goes haywire.

I realized today that I'm not going to be able to make working for S work. Not as is. I just don't have time to keep up with everything and he's freaking out and I'm freaking out and there's a lot of freaking out, but there is only so many hours in the day.

And I work 4 jobs right now.

That's a lot.

My phone rang a total of 62 times today, incoming and outgoing, and that doesn't count the voice mails, the texts, or the emails that I dealt with all day either. I worked from the time I got up until 5 and then my brain just turned off.

Yesterday, I was reading an article in a magazine about high cholesterol and saw a checklist to the side. I read down the checklist and became convinced that I have high cholesterol. Only, it turned out it wasn't a check list for cholesterol. It was for Alzheimer's. According to the chart, I have Alzheimer's.

*headdesk*

I don't really think I do. I think I have too much going on and not enough brain power to hold it all in. Somethings going to break and if I don't want it to be me, then I'm going to have to find a way to give something up. Or at least, make it manageable.

I'm going to bed now.

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( Diet and Exercise )

Work is going fairly well. I don't really have anything else to say about that at the moment.

I’m donating blood tonight. It’s been a while since I tried, but I figure it’s good for karma. Or something like that. I probably need to eat before hand, so I don’t throw up or faint. I’m already feeling hungry, so I know that I can’t go in and be all woozy.

I'm tired. It's hitting me all of a sudden, but man, I could sleep in the Olympics lately.