bewize

Sometimes I feel like I will never get my life under control. Every time I get headed in that direction, something goes haywire.

I realized today that I'm not going to be able to make working for S work. Not as is. I just don't have time to keep up with everything and he's freaking out and I'm freaking out and there's a lot of freaking out, but there is only so many hours in the day.

And I work 4 jobs right now.

That's a lot.

My phone rang a total of 62 times today, incoming and outgoing, and that doesn't count the voice mails, the texts, or the emails that I dealt with all day either. I worked from the time I got up until 5 and then my brain just turned off.

Yesterday, I was reading an article in a magazine about high cholesterol and saw a checklist to the side. I read down the checklist and became convinced that I have high cholesterol. Only, it turned out it wasn't a check list for cholesterol. It was for Alzheimer's. According to the chart, I have Alzheimer's.

*headdesk*

I don't really think I do. I think I have too much going on and not enough brain power to hold it all in. Somethings going to break and if I don't want it to be me, then I'm going to have to find a way to give something up. Or at least, make it manageable.

I'm going to bed now.