Monday nears...
Jul. 18th, 2010 11:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bewizeI've been telling myself to stop and make a post a lot lately and it doesn't seem to get done. I know that part of it is that I now have three roommate - and one of them is a toddler - and I spend a lot of time in the car. I also have another part time job, so I'm just tired from being so busy.
Today, though, was an exercise in frustration. The culmination of it is that I lost a contact and since I wear gas perm lenses, I don't have spars. I'm going to have to get a new pair of them. Also, since it's been awhile sine I've been to the doc's, I don't even have a current prescription.
To help combat that problem - and get the ball moving - I tried to go to a different eye doc than my normal one this afternoon. I found a place that takes walk ins and was all set to do it, despite the fact that eye docs and I have a treacherous past. To just sort of prep the nurse of my issues, I refused to sign permission for the glaucoma test (puff of air). I explained that - yes I know it's stupid, and yes I know I'm 30something years old, but no - I really can't do this test.
... I will wait for the collective making fun of me to begin....
It's not a question of just forcing myself to get through it. The only time in my life I nearly fainted at a doc's office was from this test. The only time in my life I've ever shouted an obscenity at a doc and stormed out was over this test.
I hate it. I hate it. Even just thinking about it makes my heart speed up.
It is a truly irrational fear, and that's the crux of it - it's irrational. I can't make it go away. I can't make it better. And I can't do this test.
Well, the woman argued with me for a while - which is expected - but then finally told me that I was just going to have to get through it. This is where I got irked, because - you see - I don't just have to get through it. There are at least two other ways to test eye pressure. My doc uses both. And regardless, all I'd have to do is sign a waiver and say that I refused the test AMA.
That's it.
No big.
Only, to her, it was a big. By the time we finished our "discussion," I was upset and she'd called me a baby. I finally told her that I appreciated her time and departed the store. But I was really upset still.
The thing is that most people make fun of me for this and while I understand and will admit it's deserved, it still sucks that I end up denied treatment because she (and/or the doc) wouldn't look for an alternative treatment.
Bastards.
I ended up calling my mom, who surprisingly, made me feel better. She got very outraged on my behalf and irate that the woman tried to bully me into a test I didn't want. I know my rights! And no, I really don't have to have that test.
So, I'm going to try and get into the doc's tomorrow to get new contacts. Right now I have an old pair. I tried just using the one from the eye that I'd lost, but it makes me feel too dizzy and lopsided.
In other news, I made two food items of interest. The first was a mushroom salad that was really yummy. The second is corn and pablano soup, which I haven't eaten yet, but tasted good when I made it. I feel quite accomplished.
Lastly, I'm a bit behind on C25K, but I did run this weekend and I'm so proud of myself. I'll make up the last run tomorrow, even if it is raining. The new shoes make a world of difference for my knees, btw. They aren't purple and bruised any more. Whoot!
And now, I'm going to go to bed. Because in the last month, I turned into an old lady and I'm exhausted all the time.
Today, though, was an exercise in frustration. The culmination of it is that I lost a contact and since I wear gas perm lenses, I don't have spars. I'm going to have to get a new pair of them. Also, since it's been awhile sine I've been to the doc's, I don't even have a current prescription.
To help combat that problem - and get the ball moving - I tried to go to a different eye doc than my normal one this afternoon. I found a place that takes walk ins and was all set to do it, despite the fact that eye docs and I have a treacherous past. To just sort of prep the nurse of my issues, I refused to sign permission for the glaucoma test (puff of air). I explained that - yes I know it's stupid, and yes I know I'm 30something years old, but no - I really can't do this test.
... I will wait for the collective making fun of me to begin....
It's not a question of just forcing myself to get through it. The only time in my life I nearly fainted at a doc's office was from this test. The only time in my life I've ever shouted an obscenity at a doc and stormed out was over this test.
I hate it. I hate it. Even just thinking about it makes my heart speed up.
It is a truly irrational fear, and that's the crux of it - it's irrational. I can't make it go away. I can't make it better. And I can't do this test.
Well, the woman argued with me for a while - which is expected - but then finally told me that I was just going to have to get through it. This is where I got irked, because - you see - I don't just have to get through it. There are at least two other ways to test eye pressure. My doc uses both. And regardless, all I'd have to do is sign a waiver and say that I refused the test AMA.
That's it.
No big.
Only, to her, it was a big. By the time we finished our "discussion," I was upset and she'd called me a baby. I finally told her that I appreciated her time and departed the store. But I was really upset still.
The thing is that most people make fun of me for this and while I understand and will admit it's deserved, it still sucks that I end up denied treatment because she (and/or the doc) wouldn't look for an alternative treatment.
Bastards.
I ended up calling my mom, who surprisingly, made me feel better. She got very outraged on my behalf and irate that the woman tried to bully me into a test I didn't want. I know my rights! And no, I really don't have to have that test.
So, I'm going to try and get into the doc's tomorrow to get new contacts. Right now I have an old pair. I tried just using the one from the eye that I'd lost, but it makes me feel too dizzy and lopsided.
In other news, I made two food items of interest. The first was a mushroom salad that was really yummy. The second is corn and pablano soup, which I haven't eaten yet, but tasted good when I made it. I feel quite accomplished.
Lastly, I'm a bit behind on C25K, but I did run this weekend and I'm so proud of myself. I'll make up the last run tomorrow, even if it is raining. The new shoes make a world of difference for my knees, btw. They aren't purple and bruised any more. Whoot!
And now, I'm going to go to bed. Because in the last month, I turned into an old lady and I'm exhausted all the time.
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Date: 2010-07-19 12:42 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2010-07-19 02:05 pm (UTC)I am unlucky enough to have "young people's cataracts". I had surgery on my left eye about ten years ago, which is done under mild sedation... except that when the doctor saw how I freaked over the part of the initial exam where they measured my eyeball he immediately made a note to bump up my sedative, lol.
And now I need to have my right eye done. Yuck.
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Date: 2010-07-19 04:58 pm (UTC)*shudders*
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Date: 2010-07-19 06:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-07-20 05:22 am (UTC)I've been in similar situations, and when nurses/doctors argue with you, it's incredibly frustrating and angering. It's like, wait, I just met you and you think you know my body better than I do? Hold on!