Swallowing My Pride: Needs Salt
Sep. 20th, 2010 12:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bewizeSo, Friday sucked because I realized I'd made 3 fairly big fuck ups last week. Today, I am charging into each of them headlong to get them fixed.
The first one is handled. And the attorney on the other side was very nice about it and I feel a bit foolish for being so worked up. But, damn, I hate swallowing my pride.
Now, I should probably pause long enough to eat lunch (breakfast?) with my pride, and then tackle problems 2 and 3. But I still feel vaguely sick about the massive screw ups.
Which leads me to the point where I recall the words of wise friends over the past few days: Give yourself a break.
I... may be incapable of not castigating myself within an inch of my life when I screw things up. This is something that I am realizing with a growing unease. I let other people make mistakes and have chances, but I really never do manage to forgive myself.
*fails*
Anyway, on to fix more mistakes now.
The first one is handled. And the attorney on the other side was very nice about it and I feel a bit foolish for being so worked up. But, damn, I hate swallowing my pride.
Now, I should probably pause long enough to eat lunch (breakfast?) with my pride, and then tackle problems 2 and 3. But I still feel vaguely sick about the massive screw ups.
Which leads me to the point where I recall the words of wise friends over the past few days: Give yourself a break.
I... may be incapable of not castigating myself within an inch of my life when I screw things up. This is something that I am realizing with a growing unease. I let other people make mistakes and have chances, but I really never do manage to forgive myself.
*fails*
Anyway, on to fix more mistakes now.
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Date: 2010-09-20 05:59 pm (UTC)1) Acknowledge that you will most certainly screw up again, and again, and again. You cannot be perfect all the time.
2) Have faith in yourself that you will do what you can to make it right when it happens.
Again, this is what has been working for me - YMMV. As a side note, I have found it easier to not screw up once I gave myself permission to screw up.