I'd Sink Us to Swim

[bewize]

Well.

Today was ridiculously useless.

I'm tired.

I'm overwhelmed to the point that I'm on the verge of freaking out about work.

I'm overwhelmed because I have to start repaying student loans, and I still haven't paid off my other debt. (I'm so damn close it hurts.)

I'm too hard on myself, I know this. The lyric that I'm using as my title encapsulates my personality a bit too well, I think. It isn't always an all or nothing scenario and I should be happier about what I've got, but damn it.

I'm not.

And that sounds ungrateful and whiny.

I regret that, because I am so grateful.

But right now, I just feel like burying my head in my arms and crying until I pass out from exhaustion.

That wouldn't take long, either.