LJ Idol: Twists, Nerves and Thoughts
Oct. 24th, 2008 11:41 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bewizeSo the contestants had to nominate people all this week. The mods picked the top four nominations and have put them in charge of picking tribes for the next few weeks.
This means that IF I survive this vote, the tribes will be changing again. It also means that one of the four top votes will have to ask for me in their tribe (or maybe tribe 5 is everyone who didn't get picked...). *lol*
I'm really nervous about this vote. I reread my post and liked it, but I'm not sure it's strong enough to push me into next week. I will undoubtedly be back to ask for votes from you lovely people later (presuming that non-participants are able to vote this week).
For a game, this thing causes me a lot of stress.
That made me think, last night, about why it causes me stress. I think it's several reasons. One, I don't normally put my writing out and allow a "vote" of like or dislike to persuade me of much.
I've churned out tens of thousands of words of fiction for public consumption, and felt not even a tiny bit as nervous as I do when I put up these entries. I mean, I look forward to and enjoy feedback as much as any author does. I don't get paid, so hearing what someone thought is seriously a high all of its own. For these entries, though, it's a little different. This isn't fiction. It's my life. I guess part of me feels like people are voting not only on my writing skills, but on my life.
It makes responding to comments hard, too, because I find myself inferring things that likely were not implied. In other words, I need to get a grip.
But it was interesting to me at least, so I thought I'd share my thoughts.
This means that IF I survive this vote, the tribes will be changing again. It also means that one of the four top votes will have to ask for me in their tribe (or maybe tribe 5 is everyone who didn't get picked...). *lol*
I'm really nervous about this vote. I reread my post and liked it, but I'm not sure it's strong enough to push me into next week. I will undoubtedly be back to ask for votes from you lovely people later (presuming that non-participants are able to vote this week).
For a game, this thing causes me a lot of stress.
That made me think, last night, about why it causes me stress. I think it's several reasons. One, I don't normally put my writing out and allow a "vote" of like or dislike to persuade me of much.
I've churned out tens of thousands of words of fiction for public consumption, and felt not even a tiny bit as nervous as I do when I put up these entries. I mean, I look forward to and enjoy feedback as much as any author does. I don't get paid, so hearing what someone thought is seriously a high all of its own. For these entries, though, it's a little different. This isn't fiction. It's my life. I guess part of me feels like people are voting not only on my writing skills, but on my life.
It makes responding to comments hard, too, because I find myself inferring things that likely were not implied. In other words, I need to get a grip.
But it was interesting to me at least, so I thought I'd share my thoughts.
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Date: 2008-10-24 07:29 pm (UTC)But I do admire that you are doing this, and I think you're much, much better than you give yourself credit for. You are one of the few people to whom I can just listen- no matter the topic- and your writing style is very similar to how you speak and I feel the same way about it.