*sighs*

[bewize]

I don't know what to say anymore here. I'm tired and stressed and grumpy and I find myself wanting to bite people's heads off more often than is healthy. It's not taking much to trigger me into snarly bitch mode of late.

Seriously, everything pisses me off. Maybe it's PMS and maybe I'm just done. I feel done. I mean done, done, done, fucking done.

I'm tapped out.

I've got nothing at all left.

And I'm irrationally upset and hurt by things that have no business upsetting or hurting me and I just... frak.

You know?

I'm not a failure, this too shall pass, everything is both all right and will be all right, but I'm stretched too thin right now.

I am TIRED of all the negative. I really need some positive. And right now, everywhere I look, it's just crap. If one more person calls with bad news, or posts with bad news, or shares my emo!bad news done sort of mood... I may really just burst into tears and never stop crying until I'm drowned.

It would help if... You know what? I don't even know what would help.

I'm going to crawl under a rock for a while. I'm not going to cancel on plans that I've made, but I'm cutting back for a while. I need... something.

I just have to figure out what that is.

Comments

[haruka]

*hug*

[sid]

And I'm irrationally upset and hurt by things that have no business upsetting or hurting me and I just... frak.

THAT sounds like the PMS I remember! :-D

I will hereby distract you by telling you of how my day completely got away from me. I had a huge to-do list (really need to make a post on do_it): phone calls, shopping lists and shopping trips, online stuff. The only household-type item was to check to see if any of the keys/skeleton keys I found belong to the side door (already checked all the other probable doors).

Well, the only thing on my list that got done, got done first thing this morning. Getting the trash/recycling to the alley by 7 AM. I even set an alarm on my cell phone to make sure I got up early enough. And started off my day laughing at myself, because I spent a good minute trying to shut off or snooze my clock radio before my brain woke up enough to realize, DUH, cell phone!!

So, apparently I spent most of the day measuring rooms and calculating where my furniture will go when I finally get it out of storage (which is costing me $385 dollars/month, which can't be right!!), and what current household furniture I want to/can keep.

Total brain-strain, because spatial relationships are Not My Thing... and apparently measuring rooms is not my thing, either. Furniture I can measure. I in fact measured my own furniture before it went into storage. Clever, no? Measuring wall-to-wall when you can't even get near the wall and have no-one to hold the other end of the tape is not so easy. Hopefully I am at least close, or moving day will be a small disaster. *crosses fingers*

So now, wow, it's going on 9 pm and I haven't eaten since noon. And I have a huge to-do list for tomorrow. *sigh* Yet I feel strangely... good. Accomplished. I will reward myself by finding some supper.

I hope your tomorrow is better. {{{HUGS}}}