bewize

So, somehow, despite all my inner protests, I have managed to stick with the 90 days program thus far.

( Cut for a LOT of exercise talk )

And on that note, I'm going to go shower. I stink.

I am so unbelievably tired. I need sleep. But first I need a shower. Only, I can't seem to motivate myself off the chair to do these things.

I didn't get home from work today until 10, although I did slip away to go to my WW meeting. I also stopped at 5:30 and ran a quick mile (then had to run longer to make up the needed 20 minutes under the 90 days rule). 2/90 done!

I had a closing tonight in BFG, but made it back safe and sound.

At some point, I've done something to my left hip. It... hates me and wants me to die. Painfully. Strangely, it was fine while I was running, but during random times of walking today, it gave out. I nearly face planted twice, saved once by S's quick reflexes and once by the fact that I collapsed onto the receptionist desk.

Not my finest moments.

I... really hope it just stops now. I can't deal with more fail in my body at the moment. I just don't have it in me.

I MADE YOU MY BITCH THIS MORNING.

Bwahahahahaha.

Now, shower. Yes, a hot one, with lots of soap. B/c the reality is that 3.5 miles made me its bitch. *lol*

( Diet and Exercise )

Work is going fairly well. I don't really have anything else to say about that at the moment.

I’m donating blood tonight. It’s been a while since I tried, but I figure it’s good for karma. Or something like that. I probably need to eat before hand, so I don’t throw up or faint. I’m already feeling hungry, so I know that I can’t go in and be all woozy.

I'm tired. It's hitting me all of a sudden, but man, I could sleep in the Olympics lately.

I just ran for 25 minutes straight. Actually, I lost track of the time and I'm pretty sure it was closer to 30 minutes, but the crazy thing is that I could have kept going. I didn't because I needed to shower and work and come here and brag about myself. *LOL*

I cannot believe that a month and a half ago, running for 3 minutes nearly killed me. I feel SO MUCH BETTER now. (Okay, my feet hurt, but the rest of me feels amazing!) Then, I stepped on the scale and discovered that I've lost nearly 10 lbs since starting this program. That's without controlling my diet much at all. It's official. This exercise thing works.

I went out and ran through the neighborhoods. It was an awesome experience. People said hi. I heard a white man tell his little girl that I was "running and exercising and that I was doing a good thing." I passed an elderly Korean man that I've seen running the same neighborhoods. He was walking today, but he grinned at me and waved. There was a Chinese couple in the park who both smiled and waved when I ran by. There was a black lady running with me who said, "You can do it, girl! Keep going!"

It reminded me of several things - one, I frigging love my city. I mean, I ran within a mile radious of my house and it was like running down an international boulevard. Also, I love the way people smiled and encouraged. I don't know if this is a Southern thing, an exercise thing, or just a random Wednesday morning thing, but it was awesome. Lastly, I love the fact that I'm a runner now.

Why yes, I DID just say that. I'm a runner.

I run.

I go outside, I huff and puff and I sweat and I grit my teeth at the hills and I smile at the people with their dogs and I run.

I won't lie. I was glad to stop when the alarm on the iPod said I could, but it was amazing to realize that I didn't HAVE to stop. I could keep going. And I plan to keep going. I'm done with all the interval parts of my training and I'm just to the "go and run for a long time" part of the training. In another 2.5 weeks, I'll be done with it. (I ended up a week off somewhere between knee pain, 100* weather, and rain.) I'm going to run a 5K in September and another in October. And I may go ahead and start training for the 10K program, too.

I still have a secret goal of being able to run a marathon someday. And you know what? For the first time in my life, I think I just might be able to do it.

Also, someone suggested that we should all be able to do anything required of the police or military in case we have to outrun them at some point. I laughed, until I realized that in my life... that's not really beyond the realm of possibility.

Plus, you know, fast zombies. Vampires who don't sparkle in the sun. Rabid werewolves. I have to be faster than all those things, too. Just in case.

I know a few people have started the C25K program and I wish you all the best with it. It's really worked for me. Really worked, actually. I'm healthier and happier than I've been in a year.

And that's a frigging long time. XD

Cheers!

Yesterday, I ran for 20 minutes without stopping. My distance is too slow, but so the f what?

I *ran* for 20 minutes without stopping.

And didn't die!

Do you know how awesome this makes me?!?!?!?

( More Actual Thoughts on Running )

I'd really like to run a 5K near the end of August. If anyone is planning to run one, or has one to suggest, or anything like that, please let me know!

It takes 21 days for something to be habit. 90 days to get an addiction. And according to the guy at the shoe store, if I run for the rest of the program here, I'll never want to stop. I can live with that.

( Health blathering )

Well that's enough from me for now. I've got things to do and docs to go and see. Wish me luck!

Today is exhausting. I'm going to be done with it now and go running. Yes, running. That should help with the exhaustion. And I'm only being partially tongue in cheek. Week 5 is not being my friend (the week, not the running) and this will be my first run. 5/3/5/3/5.

It's a lot.

I can do it!

Then I shall regroup and go from there.

But first... going to buy new running shoes! Whee!

It's already Monday. Boo.

I shall go to sleep momentarily, but I'm still kind of geared up, so I thought I'd write a post.

Like everyone else on the internets, I think this post is my life. Especially the look of pure manic glee on the little woman's face. But no, seriously, this is me. I could have written this. Every single word.

Word.

Secondly, I did my W2D3 run of C25K today. It was awesome! After I finished the last interval, I just kept running and proved to myself that I can, indeed, run 3 minutes. So watch out W3D1 run! I'm coming for you.

( Thoughts on Running )

I went to a friend's house tonight for dinner (after I ran). I took with me a pack of hot dogs, hot dog buns, 4 ears of corn, and half a watermelon. (All stuff I'd planned to eat this past week and didn't.) Upon arrival, I sat down and did nothing while other people grilled for me. I feel that this is an excellent way to have a BBQ.

We ate dinner outside, where by 9, it had cooled down to 90*. It felt fantastic (especially after running in 95* heat.) Fireflies danced in the yard to the song made by cicadas and crickets. Honeysuckle bloomed on the back fence and for a single moment in time everything was utterly perfect. My soul felt at peace and I could hear it sigh in contentment.

I don't know what will happen in the next few months, but I do know that as long as the world has moments like that one, I still believe in my heart that everything is going to be okay.

That is the name of the tag that I have for discussing things like exercise. I'm brilliant to figure out something so clever, I know, but for me it has always been an afterthought.

Diet. ... and exercise.

I've never been a kid overly fond of exercising and turning into an adult did little to help me out there. I used to get at least some educationally foisted upon me exercise, and then I would feel guilty enough in law school to make use of the free gym, but...

I'm really bad at it.

I wish I weren't, though. I know that I need to do more of it and I know that a lot of the problems I have would ease up if I were exercising more (insomnia, stress, weight, even the asthma).

It's just so hard and whiny.

Anyway, I've joined the runners and I think I may wander over there and see about sparking some interest. In me, I mean. Everyone else seems to have the hang of it.

I'm going out of town in a week-ish and when I get back, I am going to commit to doing the Couch to 5K program. I'm also going to look for a mini-nano-triatholon to work for.

... I just need the asthma to stay controlled enough to let me do this. (And the story of adult onset chronic asthma is a story for another day.)